It'll Always Take Two To Tango

A step and a two,

I don’t know where to go.

I wait for you,

Cuz they say it takes two to tango.

Here I am in the chilly night,

Freezing to death but I don’t mind.

Cuz when I’m with you it’s alright,

For here’s where all the love I can find.

Chocolates and ice creams,

Watermelons and dreams.

We had it all,

We had it together.

Movie nights and goofy days,

The countless evenings of pizza wait.

The endless hours we spent to decide,

Whether it’ll be choco chips or berry daze!

Under the moonlit sky,

In the gazebo.

I saw you with a twinkle in your eye,

And I let go!

I let go of my fears,

My insecurities and my pain;

Cuz that night was just ours to take.

We danced and danced,

Till we couldn’t dance anymore,

We danced to the tunes of,

Paramore.

You held my hand with a soft smile,

‘nd I couldn’t help but be on cloud 9!

We sat on the beach gazing at the horizon,

Watching the sun paint the sky.

I remember when I first met you,

It was a Friday and you wore a hoodie blue.

It was at the movie’s,

After the 9pm show.

I bumped into you while talking to Ree.

And you being the gentleman you are,

You picked up my stuff,

And with a smile gave them to me.

In that moment,

I fell in love with your perfect smile.

And slowly,

I fell in love with you!

I found you and,

You found me, And

I will always wait for you,

Cuz they say it takes two to tango!

A little here and there

It's true whoever said that

When you are a teenager everything seems like the end of the world! But it's not 

Was right (though i'm not sure about the "it's not" part)
Here i am sitting, don't know what to do with my life! Each day i get up expecting something special but i'm greeted by the same old scenes. My life has become a routine, something that seems has been already planned. this monotonousness is not accepted by me.I grumble but no-ones's there to listen.
Once I was telling this to my friend when she told me "be happy you living a normal life, because the changes and surprises are not always as you wish!"
True I may not be ready to bear the pain if the change ain't what i expect, but if not now then when will I learn???
Everyday i get these talks about 'your time should be well utilized now as this a crucial year in your life'. But hello just for the record, i'm still a teenager, and i don't want to spend all my time studying things which i don't when i'll use! I want to enjoy, break free of the flow. Be someone different and be famous for being different.

And here i am again today, talking to myself, asking- what is left in your life when all that you do is not what you wish to be doing! I bet nothing can go wrong now as EVERYTHING is wrong. Why even bother asking something like this when you already know the answer!

And then a voice inside me says, everything is left. Don't be sad. this period of sadness and loneliness will be short-lived. You'll once again be your own self and do things that please you and only you! you'll let go of everyone else, anyone who doesn't believe in you and your dreams. Have courage and be strong, as this is just the beginning of many more such rough patches to come. don't fall back n the first one, as soon you'll be habituated to it!

I try to argue (by nature, every teenager is rebellious, so..... you get the point ;) ) but i fail to, and i return to the world around me, disappointed because i just lost a battle but yet happy because that batlle was better lost than won! I realised that i have so many things around me which make me smile! Those memories with my friends, i'll cherish throughout my life. I learnt today that it's Okay to be wrong sometimes as -

Confidence comes not from always being right but from not fearing to be wrong!

                                                               - Anonymous

As the reality seeps into me, i realise my time's up and i should start studying, as after all, this ain't the end of my world! ;) :D

Is following rules so important?

Our whole lives we've been asked to follow rules, blindly accept authority, and when questioned the authority, we were asked to shut up!
but is this all correct? should we just spend our whole lives following rules????
nah, i dont think so. and we are always told that aim to be a leader. so don't the elders know that "A good leader is never a good follower & a good follower is never a good leader" !
so, according to this saying, we shouldn't be good followers to be good leaders so i guess that's like sweet music to my ears!!!
That's because i'm so sick and tired of just listening to my teacher's who are telling me what to do all the time!
i mean get a life and live your life through your body not someone else's! stop telling other people what to do! you tell a small kid what to do i can accept that as he might not be "MATURE" enough to handle himself though i personally don't see any difficulty in that! but there is no sense in telling a fifteen year old what to do every single minute. just remember you are inviting your own doom by doing this as one day the strings will break and I'll no more bother to even listen to what your asking me to do! not that i wont respect you anymore but you will no more be part of the core committee which defines my life!

So it's upto you to decide now whether you want me to listen you when you tell me what to do every single minute OR you are going to stop poking around so much in my life and be more bothered about yours.

So the decision's upto you, Whether you want me to be responsible for my own actions and form my own set of rules and be a leader or you want me to be a mere follower and one day break free from your cage and we both'll stand blinking at each other not knowing what to do as we weren't ready for such a situation????? 

Bring me back the boy whom i liked!

I love you no doubt about that but whats in doubt is that should i be loving u!
I know there is nothing like "should i be loving you " but still if you were in my situation this sentence would seem totally sane!!

You know when i first met you i was surprised that any guy could ever be so nice and caring.
So wonderful. just the thought of you gave me butterflies......... :)


And then it happened . I fell in love with you.
(this part is a bit dramatic :P )
I dreamt about you,
You were the first thought in the early morning.
When i looked at you could feel myself grinning,
And when you smiled i felt all the warmth in the world.....

You were this wonderful and perfect boy any girl could ever have.
You never let any thing or anyone ever hurt me.
You treated me like your princess!! <3

(the ugly truth begins)
But then something happened to you..
I was no more your Princess,
You seemed more concerned about what others think than me.
And slowly everything we had built begin to fall.
Brick by brick it fell, and soon everything you had said seemed like a lie.

Every part of your speech seemed fake.
And your smile no more brought me that warmth!
You had changed yourself or atleast put on a fake face.
I was so surprised to see you this way.


Before you never lied and you made your living through fibbing to people.
And the worst part is that you think this makes you cool.
I wonder how this happened every single day.


You no more even cared what happens to me,
You made new friends and forgot me,
At times you act like you care but my heart asks me "what is the guarantee he's no faking it now?".

Again i tell you there is no doubt that i love you but the question is should i love you!!

A new journey i take today!

This is my first blog so im a mixture of excitement and nervousness right now!!
i just realized today how useful and essential blogging is in our lives............. :)

for people who don't know me yet, stay tuned for more!
and now i take ur leave by saying "Live The Moment"
its the small things that matter in life the most :)

Yours,
Jayashri